a bug’s strife

I'm actually currently self-isolating alone but it's going spectacularly (except for an upsetting incident with an ant this morning which I will explain). I'm reading more, cooking food I otherwise wouldn't, and going to bed/waking up earlier. As for the ant incident: I saw a pretty large ant on my wall today as I was finishing my lunch--chicken, vegetables and rice. I decided to try to move the ant with a piece of paper to my windowsill so it would be freed from my apartment. The ant did not want to stay on the piece of paper and decided it would take its chances by jumping off the paper straight into my rice cooker (empty, but still extremely hot). I screamed "NO!!!" as Mr. Ant fell and landed smack dab in the middle of this sizzling pan. I saw him squirm and writhe in what I assume was the pain of him cooking internally, and quickly scooped him back up. I then transferred him to my flowerbox on my windowsill while cursing the ant and praying that he lived a long and happy life after this, likely life-changing, incident. I've been feeling inconsolably guilty since this happened. If I see Mr. Ant again, I will feed him some crumbled up bread and send him on his way.