days of my lives

My boyfriend and I had been together for nearly three years when we broke up during the holidays, after I was raped by my ex, and the present boyfriend did not know how to process it and said he needed to spend time working on himself and accomplishing some of his goals like starting a business. He moved out of our house and I live there alone now.
As much as that makes him sound heartless, it’s complicated, and I ultimately still love him.
We’ve continued hooking up occasionally over the last few months, when I’ve initiated it, and he tells me that he still loves me and deeply cares about me, and that this isn’t about him wanting to be with other people but just to work on himself because he can tell he’s not ready for the kind of relationship we were in.
So jump forward to now, and I had thought about asking him if he’d want to get quarantined here with me rather than with his three college-aged roommates he doesn’t know, because as masochistic as it is, I’d rather be having great sex and have someone here who makes me laugh and to keep busy with than to continue being isolated alone.
But yesterday I went to pickup my ipad I hadn’t used in a few months and realized he was still logged into his google calendar, as there was a notification on the screen that said “hang out with *girl’s name*”. He and I had plans to go for a walk today and I had planned to ask him if he wanted to be here with me, but I asked him if we could facetime instead of meeting to walk. I asked him about it and he said he had been on tinder and had gone on a date with this girl.
I know I couldn’t expect him to never date again but damn. He only moved out two months ago and has still been saying he loved me but needed to work on himself. Funny, he also didn’t mention working on his business at all, now that we’re supposed to be staying home and all.
I don’t know if I should just get over it because it still might be better to have someone here, in terms of short term sanity/happiness, (I’ve never been someone who NEEDS a man, but come on, an extrovert alone in my house for several weeks with no job? I’m gonna lose my mind! But then on the other hand, maybe if he were here, I’d just get to a point of wanting to kill him for being such an unbelievable asshat and coward?! ... hard to say...
Wow, this was long but I feel better! Hope someone else can find solace in the temporary soap opera of my life.