fly on the wall

I am quarantined in the mountains with a couple who have been together a couple of months. I observe their relationship grow and get to know them in different ways not all of them agreeable. The constant kissing gets a bit much, at times I want this love and affection too, especially as I miss my ex so much who split with me recently, I didn't want to break up. If we hadn't we'd now be together in quarantine. I wonder if our quite new relationship would have survived it. Feeling sorry for myself today