heartbroken

the signs of heartbreak i'm nauseous despite having eaten nothing, my body aches and i feel exhausted. there is a permanent lump in my throat. we met online in a fan group chat for a popular DJ and started chatting. i was laid off, directionless and depressed. having someone to talk to was a lifeline. the love-bombing started early, with constant texts exchanged. i should have known then it wasn't going to work. three months later and i've been ghosted. i'm left even more fragile than i was before. i think the ghosts might bring out the skeletons. i feel empty but it's not about him, it's about me.