I couldn’t help but wonder

My girlfriend of 7 yrs and I live together and have been on the rocks for at LEAST the past year. We’re in therapy at least until our therapist's office inevitably closes or starts cancelling due to Corona – it’s a low-cost, high-use place with a sliding scale so it's just a matter of time (drafted this Friday and chickened out on pressing send but the office is officially closed now). The therapy is the only thing holding us together, by a thin string, mostly because I feel like I owe it to her and myself to give it a real chance before I throw away 7yrs (it feels like a marriage! but maybe that's the lesbian in me? lol) . We haven't had sex in way too long and we fight, like have a real big blowout about all the shit that has built up, basically once a week at this point and it would be more if we hadn’t learned about and started respecting each other’s resiliency zones. Thanks therapy! Despite the progress in therapy, I’ve been working myself up to break up with her for the past two weekends and thought I had more time... The fact that both of our jobs thankfully allow us to work from home right now means that we’ll be together 24/7 and ... I just know I don’t have the capacity for any more fights about things we often can’t resolve unless we process in therapy. *carrie bradshaw voice* I can't help but think this pandemic, if we live through it, will help us both stop trying to recoup the sunk costs of this relationship for the prospective payoffs that will never come.