"I want to marry you someday" kinda (cw: mention of assault)

My boyfriend and I have been dating for 2 months, but pretty serious, "I want to marry you someday" kinda dating. Two weeks ago, I got too drunk and kissed some people I shouldn't have. The night got worse and I ended up being assaulted by a stranger.

I told my boyfriend everything, and we almost broke up. He didn't blame me for the assault, but couldn't understand why I would get drunk and kiss other people - to be fair, neither did I. But after a lot of tears and talks, I've decided to stop drinking and he's decided he wants to support me and stick it out. We have a lot of work to do to re-establish all the good things in our relationship, but we love each other and want to make it work.

He lives with his dad who is diabetic and paranoid, among other things. He also has a 90-year old grandmother who can't see and lives in the same city. His dad and grandmother are planning to stay together for a while starting this weekend.

There are rumours that London is going to be locked down in a day or two.

My boyfriend and I had originally planned for him to come stay with me and ride this out together. He's now thinking he should stay with his dad and grandmother instead.

If we meet up and have any contact he would have to isolate from them for 7-14 days, so basically going back to his house and being on his own completely.

I know that family is more important than anything, and it doesn't make sense for him to stay here for weeks on end when I am working from home and he's just chilling out on paid leave. But I'm worried that our relationship can't survive the distance.

We have the same love languages - quality time and physical touch. It just feels too soon to lose those parts of our relationship and still be committed to each other.

A guy I used to hook up with lives an hour walk or 30 minute bus ride away. I keep thinking about asking if I can pay him a visit. We're texting already.

If I make it through this year in one piece it will be a miracle.

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