it’s a vibe

I've come to terms with my marriage being full of love, but almost no sex. It's mostly my fault - I have a difficult time being vulnerable enough to say what I want or opening up without self-monitoring. So, when my friend posted on Instagram that this women's boutique was raffling away free sex toys to help with coronavirus boredom, I entered myself. I actually entered a few different emails to up my chances. I'd never tried a sex toy on myself before, but had always been secretly curious. Maybe this would be the thing that could respark our sex life. Guess who won not 1, but 2 sex toys. And guess who's still too scared to try them. They're currently sitting unused on my nightstand, staring at me, waiting for me to be OK with being vulnerable. Turns out even a global pandemic isn't enough to get my husband laid.