single and solo

Well this sucks! I’m single and live alone. I miss my vibrant social life. I miss my lunch breaks with my colleagues, travelling for work, fitness classes and dinners out with friends. The marathon I was training for was delayed twice. My theatre tickets were refunded. Weddings abroad aren’t happening. My solo surfing trip was cancelled too. I’m grateful for my flat, job and health but I’ve lost my sense of purpose. I call loved ones to see how they are, but when they say they’re busy and hang up, I realise I’m calling people more for me. The stories of being on top of your signification other and arguing with them over petty things, are so far removed from my experiences. I envy them. I guess I’m just really lonely.