thursdays are the best
I wake up with a smile, knowing this day is gonna be good. I prepare breakfast, open my laptop to work a bit on my thesis. Even the weather could be ugly outside, I know nothing can let me down today. My soul is shining bright and I smile ceaselessly. I clean my entire room, make it pretty tidy and start to do some cooking. I make something special, try out some vegan food or something which usually requires more time. Now it doesn't matter because this day deserves decent amount of time spent on making it perfect. Once I'm done with cooking, I have a shower and put on the clothes I love the most. I'm excited to meet my love and when he enters I feel my heart beating more fervently. Usually we eat together and after a while we leave for a weekly yoga class which is so damn good and powerful, I can't just put in words. After the yoga, we are at home, cuddle on my bed sipping tea or eating fruit, everything is so peaceful and magical. I love being with him. That day, 3 weeks ago something unpredictable happened and our little world utterly changed. He spoke the words I feared were coming but never really though this all would reach all of us in Europe and hit that hard as well. The finality of his leaving seemed devastating but also completely comprehensible. I bursted into tears and my crying was inconsolable. My mind was flooded with thoughts and could not stop the heavy wheezing. He put my arms around me and stroked my hair, kissed me and hours just passed by at night. We talked and listened to music until we couldn't keep our eyes open. He fall asleep with my hands in his. The lovely, lovely Thursday we had came to and end. It has been 3 weeks ago and I haven't seen him since. Thursdays are the best - as this somehow became a saying between us lately and since this pandemic has been messing up our days, I try to stick to this. That Thursdays shall be at least a tiny bit better than the other days. So, I'm watching a photo of us which is a memory of a tipsy but such a joyful night. The moments we spent together planted a smile into my heart which will last just as long as it should be - until we see each other again!