txt me

I’ve been going to school with this guy for three years now. He’s hot, nice, and a total flirt. We absolutely have a connection, to the point that mutual friends have commented on it and one even went so far as to semi-drunkenly tell us that “we’d make beautiful children together” to our faces. Which is great except that he has a girlfriend of 5 years and he clearly has no intention of breakup with her. So after that last comment, I’ve kept my distance. I feel worthy of being someone’s first choice, not side piece. Anyway, now that we’re 3000 miles apart since quarantine and getting our Zoom U degrees, he’s found excuses to text or Snapchat. Since I’m lonely and bored, I respond. I’ll stop once we’re back at school in person. I’m tired of being the (internally) sad, lonely, single one in my friend group. So I’ve also been using quarantine times to reflect and be better to myself. I want to be with someone who makes my heart joyful and who I can have a meaningful, authentic, and honest connection with.