wear whatever *you* want

I’ve been quarantined for 17 days. Every day i wake up, put on a sweater and a pair of clean lululemons, wash my face, and brush my Hair. My boyfriend is an executive chef. While i shudder at this job being “essential”, I’m glad we still have his income. Today was his first day off in 12 days . We have no groceries, so he suggested we go to Whole Foods. Great! I’m ready. but then it comes. “Are you going to change your sweater?” ”No babe, it’s clean!” I exclaim; excited to get out of the house in what feels like years. “Ok, well ......your hair?” I look in the mirror. i wasn’t insecure before, but now my curls are staring at me. This morning I gelled my hair back, even paying attention to my baby hairs. I’m perfumed and wearing $100 leggings. How can he make me feel Like this? “It’s just....you’ve been wearing leggings every day”. I’m realizing I’m in a global pandemic, and my boyfriend is concerned about my leggings and my hair. I’m not sure if he doesn’t understand the reality because he’s working, or what. But we’re in a pandemic, and I’m considering putting on jeans to go to Whole Foods.