where i am

I've been apart from the person I love for three days, we just had our 1 year anniversary. In only three days, being away made all doubts I've ever had resurface like a massive wave. I called him last night and broke up. Now all I want is to see him, not to get back together, just to see him. Where I am, if I leave my house I risk getting fined or going to jail. Now I'm spending my time googling ways to ease puffy eyes from crying.