8 months later

I broke up with my girlfriend of close to four years. We had been living together for a little over a year when Covid hit. Disagreements on how seriously to take the pandemic and health recommendations were causing fights, progressively getting worse and worse. It led to a lot of bottled up emotions, miscommunication, and toxic behavior from both of us. Not going to go into too much detail, but I lashed out a handful of times in frustration and really just didn’t handle things gracefully. We both tried reconnecting and healing each other at different times after she had moved out, but the attempts never coincided and were usually met with defensiveness, insecurity, and/or hostility. The communication problems that started it all kinda kept snowballing onward. I’ve since been able to come to an understanding of the whole situation and can think back on our actions rationally, seeing the good and bad on both sides. Coming up on eight months after the break and I still think about her every day, but she (understandably) wants nothing to do with me after the damage and hurt we’ve caused each other. I carry a lot of regret for how I treated her, even if it might have been right to end things. I miss her and hope she’s doing okay.