all it takes is a little push

I've been dating this guy for like 2 months now. We met 4 months ago and chatted ever since, but only as friends. Until one day when we actually went dating. Our biggest problem, apparently, at the beginning was ONLY the age gap: he's 13 years older than me. But besides that, we have really connected.
I must be honest, things were pretty weird even since before dating, he seemed a really kind, supportive and talkative person, until one day when he went quiet and I thought I lost him (or better said, I thought he ghosted me). So I went after him and tried to fix the things, as I am that kind of person who wants to see the good in people and who wants to give that one chance needed, in order to build something big. I've said to myself "ok, I'll do my best". So the things seemed actually good afterwards, we started this so-called relationship, first 2-3 weeks were great, he was the man I actually thought I’d like to marry one day, because he was the silence and the calm I so desperately seeked for, since I was a little girl. He was the type of guy that I pictured in my head to be the father of my children: smart, deep, calm, talented, intellectual.

After these great 2-3 weeks, Covid happened.

I've spent like a week at his apartment – we don’t live together, even tho big part of my stuff is at his place.
There the things got weird. From my side, I was really happy that finally we’d had the chance to spend some quality-time together in order to get to know each other and actually to build something stronger than before. But it appeared that the days we've spent together, he was only playing video games.
I was spending most of the time in the other room, working or doing something for myself. We barely talked, we barely laughed, like he didn't enjoy my presence anymore. I felt hurt, I tried to ask what happened and it seems that he only blamed me, my “overthinking side” and my “stupid hurtful jokes” that I make. In the next days, he went all quiet, again. So, I took the decision to go to my place, nearby (right before the total lockdown).
I've been staying here for almost a week and I am fine now (mentally). I could say I am better, because at least I don't see him physically present, but completely emotionally and spiritually absent.
We barely chat now, we approach only shallow topics, that even with strangers I don't discuss. It gives me a bad mood seeing him small-talking to me, as I know that he’s a deep person who seems to have cut off any possibility for us to ever share something deeper than this.
I’ve decided to let things go with the flow, until further notice.
I don't know what the end will be, but I expect this "relationship" to end quietly, smoothly, without a sign or explanation... only fading away.
Maybe Covid fixed the things in my life, better than I was able to.

P.S. I hope this is anonymus.