together apart

My boyfriend of a year and I have been discussing whether to take the next step (whatever that may look like) or to end our relationship. I'd like for us to stay together, but he has some things he'd like to resolve and feels as though he needs to be on his own to do so. We've been talking about this for a while, but our conversations have continually been sidelined by COVID-19 in its different stages. In a way, we were already socially distancing from one another, but now it's enforced. We live separately. I'm working from home, while he's in healthcare, surrounded by people. We agreed to not text or FaceTime for a few days while sorting through our thoughts and feelings. We planned to meet tomorrow at a park (distanced, of course) where the fate of our relationship would most likely be determined. But today, the city issued a stay at home emergency order. As of right now, we're still together, but not really.